*sigh*

The title of my blog feels quite apt to me today. "As the World Falls Down"....exactly.
The good thing about this blog is very few people I know actually read it, so i can say whatever I want....I like that!
So, seven days home from college and I am completely friendless and feeling absolutely the worst i have felt in so long. The girls have gone to America and I know when they come back they're gonna be so different and probably so close that I'll just be cut out completely, I mean i felt like it was happening already but this will be the deal closer. I could have gone too, even though I wasn't properly invited, probably because they knew i wouldn't cos of the baby, but at the same time, thinking about it, and looking at the stuff their doing over there, I'd be a total third wheel.
Something so strange is happening. No matter where I am, or who I'm with, I feel like I don't belong there. Even with my own family which really sucks because they're all i have now.
I dont's know what to do other than just either stay in my room all day or go and walk around alone, those are my two options.
I can't even describe how low I feel and how unwated by everyone. I feel like I have nothing and I never will.
If I wasn't here anymore, nobody would miss me, but I would miss everyone.